"Would you like some cheese with your WHINE?" Stress Rant Corner

[OrochiLeonaUK]

^ Sorry to hear that, hope you are ok Momma.

[cactusmomma]

It will end in surgery, that's for certain.

[cactusmomma]

Welp.. had a third MRI today on my back..

The bad news: My C5 disc is completely herniated and there's a ton of mobility issues going on with my back.
The good news: My physical therapists are doing everything in their power to keep this from ending in a spinal fusion.

So far, so good!

[Sera]

I wish you all the best, cactusmomma.

[cactusmomma]

Thanks~

My physical therapists looked over the neck MRI in further detail... they're pulling back. I now have recommendations for 2 highly qualified neurosurgeons...

It's on.

[Mikel]

I wish you the best and I hope you recover, cactusmomma.

[Don Vecta]

I'm like 2 inches to throw the fucking desk t the damn classroom! Just now had the shittiest, most stupid class I've ever had. I'm seeing right now the future toilet cleaners of these damn dirty ass parks of the city... or the garbage collectors... or the barbershop/massage parlor whores... or just plain beggars. THEY HAVE NO FUCKING BRAIN WHATSOEVER AND THEY DON'T FUCKING EVEN TRY TO DO ANYTHING BETTER OF THEMSELVES!

FUCK THEM, I'm still getting paid anyways, it's the school's money waste, not mine (but sure a waste of my time and energy on them). If I wasn't professional I wouldn't really give a flying fuck if they learn or not, unfortunately for me, seeing their stupidity and the apathy of their fucking local chinese teacher (who is also a fucking twat) it's like a kick in my groin with a Doc Marten's boot with spikes at the tip! Pff~!

[Ryth]

I don't have the option of changing majors, other than starting it all again from scratch... All classrooms I've been to are terrible.

[cactusmomma]

I know Vice is on his way to a better place, so that much is great!

Fallen: What's your major now?



As for the surgery, my neurosurgeon says this spinal disc has to come out immediately.My C-5 disc is compressing my spinal cord almost in half: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v344/RenegadePocky/34f8af64.jpg (Warning, the link is a medical image. I don't mind sharing it as it's easier to show than explain!) Originally, they were supposed to remove it, then fuse the vertebrae together yesterday.. but my insurance has, in the last week: One office didn't have my policy updated.. so they had to get the information from another office.. took 2 days. They called me the second day, said everything was set up and alright.. doc's office goes to pre-certify.. they tell her it now takes 24-48 hours to fix.. so.. Monday.. nothing. Tuesday, nothing..Wednesday, get a call from the doc's office.. the insurance has sent the case to THEIR doctors to see if it's.. get this, "medically necessary" and it will now take 1-3 days to get back to them. I'm really tired of all of this... but at least I have some nice strong vicodin to help until this thing takes place! I'd really like for this to happen as soon as humanly possible, due to the local weather stations saying this winter will give us at least 58 inches of snow.. I need to get through recovery before any ice hits.

Plus... I'd -really- like to get back to being able to do things like.. drive and exercise. I hate sitting around.

[Eddie]

It's a bitch to deal with insurance companies.

I wish you the best momma. Hope they don't take too long to sort it out.

As for me i'm delivering my thesis today, i'm pretty nervous, i've done everything they've asked but it doesn't feel like i've done enough, but I can't put my finger on it but i'm sure there's something missing, hopefully it's just me being paranoid.

[cactusmomma]

Good luck, Eddie! Let us know how it goes!

[OrochiLeonaUK]

As for me i'm delivering my thesis today, i'm pretty nervous, i've done everything they've asked but it doesn't feel like i've done enough, but I can't put my finger on it but i'm sure there's something missing, hopefully it's just me being paranoid.

You'd feel like that no matter how much you did, better to deliver what you've done than risk overkill by providing too much.
Good luck with it.

[Eddie]

Thanks guys.

I delivered it last friday during the afternoon, i'm just waiting for my teachers to grade it and then i'll know if my grade was good enough for me to make it to the presentation. In the mean time i'm going to get started on the sowing one of the looks.

[petit_rose]

Ooo, good thing I found this.
I broke my nail, Snif.

AND I feel worthless... I feel like I am not studying enough, even through I cannot sleep well for studying late at night. I feel like I am throwing my life away, like I am unappreciating my parents' efforts to give me a good life... I am just desperate, I wish I was not hopeless, I wish I were, at least, intelligent.
My grades are worse and worser, I am getting fattier and uglier, I am a completely idiot teenager complaining about my good life and my laziness to unknown people. Please, God, why did I have to be born?

[Ryth]

Ooo, good thing I found this.
I broke my nail, Snif.

AND I feel worthless... I feel like I am not studying enough, even through I cannot sleep well for studying late at night. I feel like I am throwing my life away, like I am unappreciating my parents' efforts to give me a good life... I am just desperate, I wish I was not hopeless, I wish I were, at least, intelligent.
My grades are worse and worser, I am getting fattier and uglier, I am a completely idiot teenager complaining about my good life and my laziness to unknown people. Please, God, why did I have to be born?

Breaking nails is no laughing matter, miss
You shouldn't think this way about yourself. You're a hard worker. That means a lot more than just having "hard" intelligence. You have great opportunities, supporting parents, and the drive to make it all work towards you. As for getting uglier, I think I'd have to be the judge of that