"Would you like some cheese with your WHINE?" Stress Rant Corner

[Don Vecta]

Heh, well, at least he took the advice with philosophy.


On another note, well, this is my last week in Shanghai and it's time to pack everything on my own, find a shipping company, buy my ticket and Webón's (my dog) shipment, sell my scooter (gonna miss you, my baby), and start once again from scratch. That frustrates me and annoys me! I have nothing else to do here in SH but... hell, I feel mad about this.

[Running Wild]

Where ya movin to Vecta?

[Don Vecta]

Where ya movin to Vecta?

NEXT LOCATION IS: GUANGZHOU.


Back to my second town. Shanghai was fine but... certainly couldn't feel myself 100% at ease here.

[Running Wild]

Couldn't beat Shen Woo and grab those dragon pills?

Left 4 dead : what happens when louis gets his pills

[Don Vecta]

Well... maybe what I'm gonna post it's kinda personal... I shouldn't do this but I have here tons of valuable friends and I'd like to share my thoughts of a closing stage of my life.


Shanghai, evaluation of a stage of my life (WARNING: long read).

Well, in few days I'm leaving here... having a huge mix of feelings, tons of memories, some disappointments and also feeling blue because, well... moving means several things, and one of them it's to let go stuff that somehow you started to grew fond of.

However, should I say that coming to this city in the first place was a waste of my time and my professional curriculum?

Perhaps if I see this as how I ended up my working relationship with this excuse of a man who hired me in the first place, feeling myself substituted, overwritten, disposed and taking from me all sort of respect just because he found a pretty looking new model to give face to his company, well, then I could say I came here for nothing since I doubt this moron would ever consider my performance here as something worth to my resume. I just got deleted from his company in a snap of fingers... and part of this demise was also because I wanted to.

I really don't want to feel the bitter humiliation to see an arrogant prick looking down at me, flaunting in my face how he stole my position as training manager and me just demoted to be a mere teacher again. I simply couldn't stand even thinking about it. I think calling it quits and severe my cuts with this man and his new toy was the best thing I could do... at least to keep part of my own dignity... perhaps the last thing I have.

Now, Shanghai was a big experiment in my life. Besides of being a training manager (must admit that even my boss was taking this more like a game rather than being completely serious on this position for me, I did a quite fine job training several new teachers and make them competitive professionals in education and not only backpacking foreign dudes hired to waste time with silly games in English), also tried to lead a more sober life, based mostly in being responsible to a special someone and my new dog Webón, living the life as close as a married man could be, sacrificing tons of my own space, was harder to make friends or acquaintances. Cannot say I didn't enjoy it, it felt good somehow being valued and have a place that I could felt home... but in the long run, it also wore me down and ended up in an inevitable breakdown.

Now alone here, dealing with my own problems, I found again value on my own merits and not to have all my things done... it's harder, but I feel again like a grown up man. I'm succeeding in solving stuff. But then again, I can't avoid feeling the unbearable thought to come back to square one.

Now, what lies to me in Guangzhou it's something new. Yeah, some old friends are still there, but I won't be living in the place I lived before, neither working in the same place I worked before I left to SH, it's gonna be something new.

Will it be better than it was? I must admit that, while some people could call a failure my life in Shanghai, I learned to value my working quality more and ask what it is fair, not only in cash but in self respect. Learned nothing it's for granted and that the shallowness of some people who could promise you the sun and stars would simply turn you down when they find something shinier though not exactly better in quantity.

I have to say I am afraid, sad and frustrated to start over again and letting go all the things I achieved here, though it means nothing for some... for me meant a lot. But unfortunately a man on his own like me, cannot afford to stop, I must go on and keep fighting and swimming against the tide because... nothing and nobody is there for me. My choice of lifestyle, indeed. But my life in the end. Mine only.

Hope everything goes better on my end... at least I'll die trying my best, as always.

[Ryth]

I am already writing one of my subjects (Brazilian History I) as a loss. See you next year, my female Mumm-Rah-like professor!

[cactusmomma]

I -swear-, the next person to say 'sit back, you're supposed to be healing and resting.. I'll take care of you and everything!'... then doesn't do jack?

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[Ryth]

My mother was hit by a bus this morning.

[Mai~Crimsonheart]

My mother was hit by a bus this morning.

WOAH !!! :S

what is her condition now ?

[Ryth]

Ok, there was a communication problem. She wasn't hit by a bus, the bus crashed against her car. Apparently, the bus didn't stop at a redlight and hit my mom's car. The car is totaled, but she's mostly ok, with only a big cut in her head and lots of physical pain. She is fuming over all of this, especially over the loss of the car. We had to visit her in the hospital, but I couldn't come over and see her, since only two people could see her at a time. My brother forgot her change of clothes at home, so I had to rush there to get it. I barely made it, and I had to speed like a motherfucker. I hate this city. Also, I got hurt moving my dad to the car... I was in a bad position and toppled over. I tweaked my knee and accidentally hit him in the face with my hand. I'm at work right now, but I have the day off.

[Mikel]

Ok, there was a communication problem. She wasn't hit by a bus, the bus crashed against her car. Apparently, the bus didn't stop at a redlight and hit my mom's car. The car is totaled, but she's mostly ok, with only a big cut in her head and lots of physical pain. She is fuming over all of this, especially over the loss of the car. We had to visit her in the hospital, but I couldn't come over and see her, since only two people could see her at a time. My brother forgot her change of clothes at home, so I had to rush there to get it. I barely made it, and I had to speed like a motherfucker. I hate this city. Also, I got hurt moving my dad to the car... I was in a bad position and toppled over. I tweaked my knee and accidentally hit him in the face with my hand. I'm at work right now, but I have the day off.

That was a close call.

Good to hear that she's safe, but it sucks to hear that you got hurt moving your dad to the car.

Also, I think I have now resolved my personal problems from last year because they most likely faded away after I got transferred to online schooling.

[TheDuskwalker]

Glad to hear she's okay.

My mom died in a car "accident" so I feared for the worst.

[Mai~Crimsonheart]

Glad to hear she's okay.

My mom died in a car "accident" so I feared for the worst.

Im sorry to hear that ... i dunno what i would do if my mother died.

[Mikel]

Glad to hear she's okay.

My mom died in a car "accident" so I feared for the worst.

I'm sorry for your loss...may she rest in peace.

[Ryth]

I'm sorry for your mom, Duskwalker. I seriously worried about mine today when I first heard of the news, especially due to the X-TREME DETAIL ("the bus hit your mother"). I pictured the bus running over her on the street. Good thing it wasn't the case.
My brother got to visit the car yard where they took the wrecked car too. If anyone were sitting in the passenger's seat at the time, they would be dead, and that's if they were lucky... the bus absolutely smashed that part of the car, so much that all of the cuts my mother had were from the shrapnel that flew from the passenger's side. The bus' paint rubbed off on the car too... I seriously didn't expect it.
Now mom's at home, resting and healing. Thank you for the concern, everyone. I'm a bit crazy over all of this.